Was today typical?
Was today typical, as in filled with random, unrelated issues and problems that I was expected to solve?
Yes.
Was today typical in a “same shit, different day” kinda way? Not at all. My days never are. And that’s what I fucking love about my job.
How would you describe yourself to someone?
Third person description. Because i can.
She’s an intelligent, kind, and strong person. She is very forgiving, but can act with heartless, clinical precision if circumstances call for that. She’s quirky, nerdy, and obsessive about learning. She hates drama and small talk, generally keeping to herself. She’s an awesome listener, though, very compassionate. But if you get her going on something she’s interested in? Yeah, you’ll be discussing that, (as well as any random but related thing that comes up) for hours.
What strategies do you use to maintain your health and well-being?
Health – movement. Listening to my body. Resting when i need to instead of pushing until my body forces the issue. Grounding. hydration.
Wellbeing – writing. Listening to silence. Protect my peace and my energy. Letting go. Observation. Sunlight.
What’s the story behind your nickname?
Wow, this has the potential to be a long one. I have had quite a few nicknames over the years. But, we’ll just go with the most recent ones…
“Number Woman” – this was bestowed by a coworker due to not only my love of complex math, numbers and related theory (pi, phi, fibonacci, etc.) but my affinity for remembering random numbers. Years ago, when i first started at the company, this coworker walks in and says “11723 – make sure i remember that order number!” He went about his business, but was able to tell him a day or so later when he asked. i was dubbed “number woman” shortly thereafter.
“Siri” – my boss had an epiphany or something during a conversation one day, and started calling me Siri because he could ask what the weather is for the day, info he needed for work, or even random curious questions and i usually had the answer for him. Some of the staff picked it up too…
So, yeah, those are the stories behind my current nicknames.
What do you listen to while you work?
Depends.
At the office? Other people. The noises from the factory and warehouse.
At home? Music. Silence that isn’t silence because of the dogs and traffic going by. Me, talking to myself.
Are you seeking security or adventure?
I am seeking answers.
What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?
I think it would be easier to define what I will not let go of for the sake of harmony, so here goes:
– My sense of self and self-worth. i no longer apologize for shit i didn’t cause, or simply agree for the sake of keeping the peace. If we disagree, that’s fine, but i will not waste my energy to get you to see my point of view if you’re committed to misunderstanding me or not even willing to listen with an open mind.
– My autonomy and the values that drive it. If i do something that i know to be the right thing and it makes you uncomfortable or upset, then so be it. I will not intentionally harm someone, but transient hurt feelings are not harm. They are part of life.
Yeah, those are the two big ones with no real gray areas.
What is your favorite genre of music?
TOOL
Whatever genre they are, it’s that.
Seriously, though, i like a ton of different music depending on my mood. I prefer heavy bass and drums, growling lyrics and intermittent screaming, but that does not preclude something fun, soft, silly or even crooning!
How important is spirituality in your life?
Very much so, though that has not always been the case. But the fact of the matter is, everyone needs to believe in something, on a far deeper, more instinctual level.
Believing in something – your deity of choice, nature, the universe, or even the unknown – is somehow essential for humans.
i have known people who truly don’t believe in anything, and i let them convince me that the things I believed in were silly or nonsensical. In some cases, they used my own logic against me. But, something still felt off after i stepped away and set those beliefs to the side.
i have also since realized that existence without that belief is lonely, empty, and meaningless. It leaves this gaping hole in your being, that you desperately (and unsuccessfully) try to fill.
i don’t care who you are or what your thoughts about the world are – everyone needs to believe in something outside of, and more powerful than, themselves. and i’m not at all saying that you have to subscribe to some existing school of thought or religion or anything for that belief to be valid and effective. What you believe in doesn’t matter – just that you do.
If you were forced to wear one outfit over and over again, what would it be?
Interesting question….
One outfit I do wear over and over is jeans and a black T-shirt. So, if I had to pick the outfit I was forced to wear in this hypothetical situation, that would be it.
If there were an outfit I would have to be forced to wear at all, much less repeatedly, it would be anything involving a skirt. Not really a girly chick, here! 🤷♀️😝
A Peculiar Cerebral Tangle 