Tag: dailyprompt

Moving around so much as a kid basically made it so that I was almost always “the new kid” and would feel horribly out of place until I was able to make a couple of friends. Jumping from job to job until my late 20s only served to perpetuate that dynamic.

I got to a point early on where I simply stopped letting feeling out of place bother me so much. Does it suck? Absolutely. It’s incredibly uncomfortable and anxiety inducing. But at the same time, it is just a feeling, and can be overcome by treating people with kindness and respect, trying to get to know them, or simply doing what I was there to do and leaving. The latter is especially easy when it comes to a job or a class or a random errand.

Even still, I have spent most of my life never really feeling that I actually belonged anywhere that I was, except when I am lost in a book or my own thoughts and my surroundings become irrelevant. So, unless I am in that place, I feel out of place and somehow disconnected. I can still build meaningful and strong connections with people, don’t get me wrong. It’s just that I don’t feel a strong sense of belonging in many situations. And that’s ok.

Perhaps the lack of “belonging” is from a flawed process in my mind, I don’t know. It’s just something that has always been that way, and I never really questioned it, because I always have that space and those moments to fall back on. I don’t necessarily need to belong somewhere to be happy. I’m content with my ability to float from situation to situation and place to place.

As in, I couldn’t own one? Not much different, because I could still use one for work. I would just have to revert back to pen and paper writing, and would likely draw more, which would be a blessing.

As in, I can’t use one, ever? Well now, that’s a different story. I would have to rethink my profession, for sure. I would also go back to being a bookworm and spending hours on end in the library, happily reading about any number of topics. I would draw more. I think, maybe, I might actually be happier.

Ya know, thinking about this, I have to wonder if that’s not a better way to do things.

I love learning new things, so this is a bit of a loaded question.

I would love to learn more SQL. I want to be able to cook a perfect steak every time. I would like to learn how to shoot. I want to learn how to do experiments with a particle accelerator. I would love to be fluent in at least three languages, and have one of them not be Latin based.

I could go on and on….

I have said before that I’d be a professional student if someone would pay me to do that…. A girl can dream!

This is an interesting question.

What could I pay more attention to? Plenty. There are hundreds or even thousands of things in a given day that I simply dismiss because I don’t believe it’s worth my time.

What should I pay more attention to? My wellbeing in general.

And for the record, I believe the second applies to lots of people.

I don’t have one and honestly can’t have one. I haven’t made it through today yet, and as long as I wake up, who the hell knows what insanity the day will bring?

Hard work – physical, intellectual, or emotional – has many different ways to make me feel fulfilled. I would have to say that the strongest sense of fulfillment comes when I lay down for bed. If I worked hard that day, no matter if with my body, mind, spirit or a combination there of, I drift off easily and sleep well. Knowing that I worked my ass off doing whatever it was brings a sense of serenity.

I may not have actually achieved a single goal that I had set, it may have been a day rife with struggle and difficulty and maybe even setbacks. But, I put forth my best effort, my hardest work. I made progress toward the goal, even if that progress was as simple as learning from a setback or mistake.

I don’t have one, per se. It’s a tie, and it is impossible to choose between them. At least, for me it is.

My intelligence is one, and the other is being empathetic.

Intelligence, rational thinking, problem solving – these things are all intertwined and have served me incredibly well in life.

Empathy and compassion lend themselves to kindness, which I believe is essential in life.

To hold both of these qualities in such high regard is interesting. A person can certainly have both, but often, it’s difficult to be both, especially in a single moment or situation. One is rational, fact based understanding. The other is irrational and emotionally driven.

Thinking about it, I suppose you could say that the trait I value most about myself is my capacity to strive for that balance.

This one is easy. 😉

Writer/Artist (creative pursuits)

Physicist

Philosopher

If money ~and~ sleep didn’t matter, I would do all three!