That fateful night…

Describe a decision you made in the past that helped you learn or grow.

I decided not to pursue my dream of becoming a surgeon. I remember that night very well. I was laying in the grass, staring up at the moon. I had been having a very animated conversation in my head.

Anxious and exhausted, i took a deep breath and tried to quiet my mind, just staring at the sky. In an amazing moment of clarity, I realized that I could never be a doctor because losing a patient would utterly destroy me, even if I had done everything perfectly. Statistically speaking, I was guaranteed to lose a patient, and therefore guaranteed to destroy myself. I then asked myself – so what will I be if not a surgeon?

I still don’t have an answer, but I have learned so much since then. I’m actually starting to wonder if I even need an answer to that question that is more specific than, “I am a student of the universe.”