Month: April 2025

(Please pardon the sudden change in format for this edition of the series. I got inspired, and this is what came out…)

Learning. Could that be the point? is it the point for me?

What if the point of human existence is to learn as much as possible for the cosmically miniscule amount of time that we do exist?

What if the universe and everything in it is simply made of consciousness, and that consciousness wanted to know what it was like to have a non-infinite existence? And complex, chaotic emotions? What if we are the result of a curiosity that can literally create anything?

What if we are simply characters in something’s imaginings?

What if the more you learn, the longer you live? probly not, but a girl can hope!

What even is consciousness? we know what a lack of it is, but what is it?

Darkness is the absence of light. cold is the absence of heat (or the lack of movement on an atomic level).

Consciousness is…. the lack of nothingness. Was consciousness created by the big bang?

Consciousness can’t simply be a lack of awareness, at least, i don’t think. If that were the case, there are plenty of people in the world who should qualify as unconscious, but are walking around, talking, and doing things.

but, i guess it would depend on what exact level of awareness we’re talking about. Consciousness could be a lack of awareness of anything. Even when you’re sleeping or knocked out, your body is aware that it has things to do, like breathing and pumping blood.

i read somewhere that when you go under general anesthesia, you actually die briefly in the process, or almost do. or something. I need to look into that…

humans use the word consciousness to mean what works for us. aware, awake, cognizant, etc. but if consciousness is the lack of nothingness, then the word doesn’t do it justice.

is it possible to imagine nothingness? do we even have a frame of reference for that? if you say “nothingness” to someone, they probably picture a black void. But, as far as we know, black can’t exist without all the other colors, and is therefore something, so our imagination of nothing would be categorically wrong. But, thinking about it, the vacuum of space does look black. but could that be because it is a photo based on visible light. What would it look like if not constrained by our human anatomy?

I used infrared film once. The pictures were amazing!

Learning. Understanding. Finding connections between things. Realizing that everything is connected on some level…..