I don’t care

How many times have you said this to others or yourself? And how many of those times was it actually true?

I’m truly beginning to question anyone saying this, including myself.

I have seen many instances of someone saying this, but they really do care. They have a preference, or they would be hurt by a particular outcome, or whatever the case may be. But those words and feelings are stifled by the urge to please, or the need to not hurt someone else. And, for the record, not hurting someone else can often hurt you in the process, and neither is actually less hurtful than saying what you think right off the bat.

And this applies to situations where you did the right thing, but there was negative feedback, or you were hurt in the process of doing the right thing. You say, “I don’t care” or, even better – “I don’t care anymore“. And you do care. You care hardcore, from the tips of your toes to the top of your head and from there to the moon and back – you. fucking. care. But you’re putting up a front so you don’t have to deal with the pain of still caring. But ya know what?? The pain you cause yourself by ignoring the pain of caring is worse than anything, because it impacts not only you, but others that you care about, and you don’t even realize.